Some really repetitive thoughts on writing:
1) I always wanted to be a writer. I am a writer. But I don't get to write what I want, when I want. Do any of us? Furthermore, I feel trapped. I feel in competition with others.
2) A lot of writing out there is crap.
3) I am better at writing (unpleasant to write) things that "anyone could write" than anyone I've encountered. Also, I have been leading others to be pretty ok at writing for more than 20 years. Now I'm out of the loop, I'm not paid for that sacrifice.
5) About 500 people total like my free to be you and me work. None of these will get me nominated for an NBA.